Today, I have to write something...

Sep 9, my birthday. Usually I don't think B day is such a big deal,
but now, I am getting older, more concerned about this issue now.

Hong is comming from Washington and takes her long time,
was worried, then she told me she forgot her dress shoes,
I kind of blammed her for that. Not mature, I should be more understanding,
maybe next time.

Getting too later,
time for bed.
so long...

公元 2004 年 9 月 6 日 晴 风急 气寒

很好的阳光
下班出来居然有点感动
可是气温却很低
难道夏天真的烧到尽头了

躺在床上本来想看守
可是没多久就睡着了
阳光晒在裸露的身上睡得很舒服
梦里又回到了稻香村
握着你的手哽咽难言
眼泪慢慢聚集起来随风飘了起来
打在晚夏还没有鲜艳的红叶上

醒了发现自己真的流泪了
心情倒不灿烂了许多
到饭厅里要了份喜欢的肉末土豆
一边吃一边听 刚下载的歌
歌里大声唱亲我吻我让我生活在真实感触中

晚上上班了
漂亮同事又抱怨更衣柜不安全
说倒下来会压死人的
我笑起来说
如果压死你
我把你大拇指划开来
使劲吹气
你就会象充气娃娃一样活过来
她笑骂着走了

打开海浩一个叫喜气洋洋刷屏
我很怀疑其实他是蛋生的马甲
把自己帖子顶起来
还是怀念浮云啊
上次药老大回来了
尿不得却好几没有看到了

躺床上看书
又想灌水
偶然来文学版看看
看到了雪飞


我很土, 又很俗, 可我心地很实在.不读书, 不看报, 一有点空就灌水.

09-06-2004 19:54

Forever Young

Let's dance in style

let's dance for a while

Heaven can wait

we're only watching the skies

Hoping for the best

but expecting the worst

Are you gonna drop the bomb or not

Let us die young or let us live forever

We don't have the power

but we never say never

Sitting in the sandpit

life is a short trip

The music's for the sad man

Can you imagine when this race is won?

As we turn our faces into the sun

Praising our leaders we’re getting in tune

The music is played by the madman.

Forever young

I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever forever?

And ever

Forever young

I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever forever?

Forever young

Some are like water

some are like the heat

Some are a melody and some are the beat

Sooner or later they all will be gone

Why don't they stay young?

It's so hard to get old without a cause

I don't want to perish like a fading rose

Youth's like diamonds in the sun

And diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today

So many songs we forgot to play

So many dreams swinging out of the blue

We'll let them come true

Forever Young

Just started night float, but it already seems so long and boring. Every night, the same crap again and again. Mr. B has difficulty of breathing? Of course he does! He had CVA and with severe dysphagia, he can't even swallow his own saliva, what you want him to do? Of course all the secretion will be wondering in his throat and making those horrible noise... After N times I explained this to the SAME nurse, I feel I am talking to a wall. Just feed him through PEG, let me go back to my music...

Oh, forever young ...

I feel my life unfolding right in front me, I can see, hmm, maybe feel how it goes, but I can't control it, just drift with life, any struggle will feedback me with pain and anxiety, let it go, let it go...

Oh, forever young...

My birthday is coming, 36? I will become 36 , feels so OLD.... I feel tired to meet new people and explore, but really miss old days and old friends, yes, I become old. As they say, old is a disease, there is no cure for it, only cure is deny it, pretend you are sill young, but you will look like an OLD idiot....

What to do , what to do? I have a destiny but my heart still yong? Heaven can wait, let it wait, I want to see, to feel and to experience... Youth like a diamond under the Sun, diamond is forever...